Friday, October 23, 2020

Dewey 24 Hour Readathon October 2020

12:00AM Hey folks It's been a while! I've been meaning to post here but this year has been getting ahead of me (I'm sure some of you feel the same), and so I've just stuck to my Instagram. But I think I'd like to get back here, and I really enjoy using this platform for the Readathon! I'm also going to be posting a full lookbook of my Inktober here at the end of the month so stay tuned for that!

But anyway, the Readathon is upon us! I'm honestly so excited and was even more excited when I found out that I don't have to work tomorrow, and so I will be able to stay close to home and really enjoy the day reading. I do have some things I might be doing tomorrow, popping in and out of the house, and so my plan for this month is to focus on audiobooks, which will give me that flexibility. I think I'll start with an audiobook, so I can get my bedroom cleaned, as it's quite messy and I'll be spending the evening reading there, so I'm going to be reading The Devil's Highway by Luis Alberto Urrea. I got it on audiobook forever ago from Audiosync. A website that does a bunch of free audiobooks in the summer. I'm excited to see what it's about!


5:00AM I'm about halfway through The Devil's Highway and it's really been enthralling. The book tells the story of a group of 26 people who attempted to cross the desert stretch as they trekked from Mexico to Arizona. The book is gruesomely detailed as it tells the accounts of the terrible conditions these people went through in an effort to make it to a better life on the other side of the desert. As I've been listening I finished my Inktober project for tomorrow, and I've been doing laundry. I guess the upside to being awake at 3AM is that you get to start your laundry with no interruption! 😂


6:45AM I'm going to take a break and go to bed for a little while. The day has caught up to me and I'm just a little too tired right now. I've got about 2 hours left in The Devil's Highway, and when I get up my plan is to finish that off and then switch back to Daring Greatly by Berne Brown.

12:00PM

So I fell asleep around 7:30 and woke up at 11:30. I'm going to jump back into the Devil's Highway and see if I can finish it before I have to run some errands. 

2:00PM

Just finished The Devil's Highway. It was a really fascinating story and brought up a lot of great questions and discussion topics about immigration, boarder control, and the idea of "The American Dream". I decided to move to something a little lighter so my next book is the Witch's Vacuum Cleaner by Terry Pratchett. I've never read a Terry Pratchett book before even though I grew up with friends obsessed with the Discworld series. I thought that a standalone would be a nice introduction to his work.

Sunday 2:13AM

The day got away from me with some things I had to get done, but I really enjoyed the time I got to spend reading. I might plan another personal readathon on another weekend later this year when I have a bit more time to devote to it.

Thanks for coming along for the journey!

Thursday, August 13, 2020

Review: The Fire By Night by Teresa Messineo

Hey friends,
It's been a while. How have you been? It feels like a lifetime ago since I've been on here, and in some ways I think it has. We were in a very different world back then.

 I've been doing a lot of reading lately, trying to get through the library that is my TBR, and it's allowed me rediscover some books I didn't know I had.
Historical fiction is not something I tend to read, but frankly I don't know what I tend to read anymore.  Quite a while back I received The Fire by Night from LibraryThing's Early Reviewer, and I figured "here's where I start reading something different"... and then I put it down and forgot about it. But then last year I got into a sort of reading rut, I din't know what to read and I started picking up all types of books just to put them back down again. That's when I stumbled across The Fire By Night again, and I really started to get it.

The book tells the story of two U.S. Army nurses during WWII. Josephine "Jo" McMahone, a brassy Italian-Irish Catholic girl from New York, and Kay Elliot a shy, naive farm girl from Indiana. Both girls, who met in training and formed a strong bond over the trials and traumas they faced together, are now separated by miles and oceans. Jo is in France with six wounded soldiers when half her camp is hit by a roadside bomb as they are pulling back from the fighting lines. Now alone with six wounded soldiers, and a handful of people protecting them, Jo must find the courage to keep going, even with the loss of both her brother Gianni, and her mentor Queenie. Meanwhile Kay is in a POW camp in Manila, mourning the loss of her husband, Aaron, and the life they tried to build in Hawaii before the attack on Pearl Harbor, while fighting to survive the famine and brutality of the Communist Japanese.

This book is powerfully raw in it's descriptions of what it was truly like to live in these dire conditions. Fighting to survive during one of the darkest times in history. Both women fight with starvation, disease, and existential questions of faith while finding some courage to keep strong during a time where there seemed no hope. Jo, whom the book follows more closely, feels torn when she is described as a saint. Something she struggles with throughout the book. Her head nurse Queenie seems to her to be the epitome of what the American nurse should be, she's skilled compassionate, and completely unshakable. Jo continually draws her strength from Queenie, following her every word. Queenie is such a powerful leader that all the nurses in their group can't help but look up to her as the older sister they wished they had. Once she along with all the rest of their nurses are lost, Jo wonders how she will go on. Even so much as feeling the survivors guilt that someone else would have done it better, but nonetheless she trudges forward. She learns new skills, serving as both doctor and nurse, as she discovers she has a patient with apendicitis, and no other skilled person to help her. She dresses wounds and cares for her patients as though it's the only thing she has left to do, feeling that there is no hope to see an end to the destruction the war is causing. 

Jo is, in my opinion, the example of the hopelessness of a fixed mindset. She sees the world in black and white, that there are good people and bad people and that there is no way to change what side you are on. Until she has an encounter with a wounded German soldier. The man, armed and desperate, comes to steal food from them. Jo helps him with his wounds, changing the dressings and decides that doing the right thing even for the enemy is what keeps us human. That no matter how ugly the world gets we are defined by our actions; how we help others; how we stand up to our fears.

I find this beautiful, because this is where Jo starts seeing herself as a heroine, she starts seeing where she really can make a difference. and what she can do to help others.

One thing that bothered me about this book was how much effort was put into Jo's story, and how little was put into Kay's. At times it was even downright boring. And that really upset me. Kay's story starts out strong. She and the other soldiers have set up a base in Malinta Tunnel on the island of Corregidor in the Philippines. Also working out of a makeshift hospital Kay begins to have her own set of illnesses. She feels the anxiety and claustrophobia of living in hiding, attending to her patients and ignoring her own needs. Often she daydreams of her life before the war. Kay was stationed at Pearl Harbor before the attack. There she meets Aaron, they marry, and Kay begins to dream up all the amazing things that will happen in their life. Kay finds out she's pregnant and she and Aaron are ecstatic to begin their lives together in paradise when the harbor is attacked. In the chaos and horror of it all Arron does not survive, and shortly after Kay miscarries their child. Soon after she is transferred to Malinta where she continues to grieve her husband and child, before they are captured and moved to a POW camp. There Kay does what she can to not incur the wrath of their captors and help to hide evidence of a planned escape.

Looking back I think I found more interest in Kay's story line, but right off the bat it was evident we wouldn't get much of it. Part of me even wishes theses were two different books. Kay's story line was treated as filler, something to keep you anticipating Jo's story. You could tell that there wasn't as much care given to her story and the expansion of her character, and that really frustrated me. In the end her story was summed up in a letter she sent to Jo, and briefly described by Jo herself. I feel like she deserved more. If the story was to show how strong and heroic these women were, why was only one of them given the attention a hero deserves?
Don't get me wrong I loved Jo's story as well, in post wartime Jo dedicates herself to helping POWs, and working in the war office to help out in any of the minute details that come along with putting the world back together. She even finds love. Jo builds a connection with a patient, David, as she cares for him, eventually, when the war is ended, and they are separated, she works tirelessly to find him. To put her life back together, and to find her own happiness she goes to the ends of the earth, and she is truly a very strong person, she doesn't do it because it gives her glory, though she is awarded the purple heart for her outstanding courage, she does it because she knows it's the right thing to do, and because she has to fight until everyone is back from the war not just her. I just wish that same effort was afforded to Kay's story.

It seemed too much like Kay was an afterthought, and if that was the case then why add the character in the first place? If you aren't going to do them justice. And if it is to show that not everyone is the hero (Kay), and not everyone get's a happy ending (Jo) then make that point clearer, and not an excuse a reader will use to make up for poor writing.

In the end I did genuinely enjoy this book, but there were still things I felt needed to be cleaned up. The first few chapters were dull and had no development. there were points where grammatical errors and run-on sentences caused a lot of confusion about what was actually going on, and I felt that overall Kay was robbed of a really compelling story line. Maybe I'm being too critical, but I just felt like this book had the potential to be so much better, and just missed the mark.

Saturday, April 25, 2020

Dewey's 24 Hour Readathon April 2020

12:48 AM - Good Evening! I am excited and rearing to go! I'm going to try to keep to a similar format as last year but we'll see how that goes. First up this evening was finishing off the last two chapters of The Fire By Night by Teresa Messineo, and Oh my gosh that is a fantastic book! It's one that took me so long to finish but honestly is one of my favorites now. I'll have a review up next week. for now onto the next one. It's a bit silly but I'm going to try and knock out the Junie B. Jones series by Barbara Park next.

1:34 AM - I've Finished the eleventh in the series Junie B. Jones is a Beauty Shop Guy. Oh my gosh this might have been the reason I cut all my hair off in second grade. Like I'm pretty sure this book was exactly the reason I thought it was a great idea to go at my own head with craft scissors the day before school pictures. Mom I'm sorry!

4:47 AM - I've just finished an old mystery book I've found Dead Man's Cat by  about two kids and a missing stamp collection. It was super fun and quirky! It was very akin to the Audrey Hepburn movie Charade, but in a preteen mystery sort of way. I love finding old paperback mysteries in thrift stores and this one did not disappoint. Equal parts camp and suspense it was a fun little read! Now I think it's back to the Junie B. Jones series until I decide it's time to get stuck into a bigger book.

5:43 AM - I've just finished Junie B. Jones Smells Something Fishy. Guys I have to admit this is genuinely my guilty pleasure series. The amount of times I tried to keep a dead bug as a pet when I was a kid was numerous. And to read about a six year old who is trying to convince their parents that a dead fish is an excellent pet is honestly the weirdest type of validation I will ever have. Don't judge me.

10:51 AM - I fell asleep somewhere around 6:30 this morning, and just woke up. Before I fell asleep I started Holes by Louis Sachar and got 9 chapters in. It's weird comparing the book to the movie, especially since I haven't seen the movie in 3 or 4 years. There are so many things I remember from that movie and I don't know why. It wasn't a particular favorite, and I was pretty young when it came out, yet seeing that movie was a big memory of my childhood. Funny how that happens isn't it?

3:38 PM - I Read Holes until about 12:30 then got distracted with things around the house. I'm going to make myself a late lunch and then jump back into it.

7:55 PM - Whew! Time flies! Just finished Holes and let me tell you it makes me want to watch that movie so much! It's both so frustrating and so mun at the same time. Like I said I like books with a little mystery, and since it had been years since I'd seen the movie I forgot how the story ends. And it is so good! The frustrating thing about this book is looking at it from a legal point of view, which is hard not to do when your dad is a lawyer. The absolutely awful situations these kids were put in were honestly baffling to me at times. OH MY GOSH! I need to keep reminding myself it's a kids book! Next up I'm going to head back to the Junie B. Jones series and see if I  can make my way through that.

9:04 PM - Only three hours to go! I just finished Junie B. Jones is (Almost) a Flower Girl. It's #13 in the series. Gosh these books are just absurd! Do you remember being a precocious little kid who said anything that popped into their head? I certainly do! Also it was around the time I read this the first time that I was a flower girl in my mom's friend's wedding and let me tell you I am more and more coming to the realization that I was Junie B. Jones as a kid.

10:32 PM - I got a little bored of the Junie B. series so I decided to shift to another book. A Book of Scottish Nursery Rhymes by Norah Montgomerie an old thrift store find, and man am I not well versed in old Glasgowian. The rhymes have a lot of words like "tae (to/two)", "wi (with)", "hame (home)", "papingoe (parrot)" and various other little phrases. Thankfully there's a cheat sheet in the beginning of the book to turn back to when I get a bit lost in the brogue. And for the moment I am going to take a stretch break. while I finish off the half jar of peanut butter I've been snacking on all day.

12:17 AM - My computer decided to update at exactly midnight! But I made it! Almost 7 Books, 694 Pages in total and I am actually totally down to finish this last book I've been reading before I turn in (should I? Maybe not). I hope you've had as lovely a readathon as I have. I might do another one soon, because I still have a huge backlog of books I started and never finished sitting on my bedside table. But we'll see.

Have a good evening, and I'll talk to you all soon!

~Delaney

Friday, April 24, 2020

Life Update: April 2020 Habits, Routines & Motivation

There's a lot I've wanted to share here, but I haven't found the time. Well I haven't made the time, but I'm working on that. I'm trying to be more proactive of how I spend my time, which meant that certain hobbies, such as this blog had to fall by the way side as I worked on building new habits. And then we were all placed in quarantine. So what's happened over the past five months? Well a lot!

I Got a New Job & Started Working On Myself

I had gone about 6 months working as a nanny and it just wasn't cutting it for me. I really did enjoy a lot of it, and I do still do the occasional sitting job for a friend of two, but I wasn't running myself as a business, and so I wasn't making profits. It was the second time I had ever quit a job and it was just as hard, but honestly for the best. I ended up finding a new job in October at a Five Guys, and although it wasn't exactly what I wanted, I am all the better for it. I absolutely love the work I do, I enjoy the people I work with and I can honestly say it brings me joy. I had worked so long avoiding working a job I had never experienced solely based on the perspective other people had on it, but honestly one of the things I'm working on this year has been not making decisions based on other people's opinions, and I'm honestly enjoying that liberation!

I have known for a long time that I struggle with productivity. It's not that I don't want to do things it's that I don't know how to get started, and I fear failure so finishing projects becomes hard too. As anyone who struggles with productivity knows it's not about not having goals it about making the plans for those goals. It took me five years to get my license because I was so afraid of driving that I didn't pursue a permit, and then once I had a permit I wasn't persistent and vocal enough to get any behind the wheel training. So I let my permit expire and I got another one a year or two later. I didn't end up actually getting my license until May of 2018 right before I left for summer camp. And I was so mad that I hadn't done it sooner. It was then I decided I needed to start setting attainable goals and working on them. So when I came back from camp that year I decided to quit my job at my dad's office and find something I enjoyed. I started working full time as a nanny and really enjoyed the experience. I had to learn to manage my own time and money. I had to learn to budget for expenses (crafts, trips to the zoo, gas, ect.) and I learned a lot about managing myself. Although in the end I decided to stop nannying as it wasn't a consistent or profitable business for me at the time, I am so thankful for that experience. I learned to set my own time, I learned to not overwork myself and still stay productive, and I learned to value my own worth, and not take no for an answer. This lead me to finding the job at Five Guys and everything about it seemed to fall into place. It's close enough to home in Riverside that I get to take a really beautiful drive, and it's close enough to church and friends in Corona that I can stay connected to my community. It's a job and it's not forever but in a weird and personal way it gave me a ton of independence and I'm so thankful for it.

I Started Attending A Bible Study

My church started a new round of growth groups and I got involved in the young adults group. After a long time of nannying and volunteering in church with preschoolers it was a really great shift to start hanging out with people my own age. 😂 It also allowed me to build a stronger connection with God and helped me a lot through the shift we were all forced into over the last month. If it weren't for these people constantly lifting each other up and finding new ways to help out our community I don't know how I would have taken going into quarantine. Last year I struggled with a lot of things I didn't feel comfortable talking to others about, and now I have a group of people I can tell absolutely anything to without fear of judgement. I'm so grateful for this group of people and can't wait until we're all allowed to meet in person again. I'd really like to encourage you to find a group to get together with throughout the week, whether it's a bible study, a book club, an online game group or whatever you're interested in. If quarantine has taught me anything it's the importance of community, and that's coming from an introvert who was home schooled her whole life. Stay connected to the people you love and remind them why you love them. I find that the best thing to do when you start to feel alone is to reach out to someone who might be feeling alone too. Stick with it for at least two weeks, even if it feels awkward at first, you never know how it could impact someone's life or even your own.

I Stared Organizing My House

Eesh the big one! Has anyone else gotten so freaking bored?! I am not one for house work in fact I am currently writing this in an attempt to avoid doing dishes, but this last week I got so bored I started doing laundry voluntarily! Which if you know me is actually something I will avoid doing as much as possible until all I have left is a swimsuit and two mismatched socks. But I've actually stared to enjoy some of it. My mom and I went through our garage and started getting rid of old craft supplies, fabrics, home school curriculum and all the random junk my various fairly members have dumped on us in the past few years. It's crazy busy work and we're still a long way from the finish line but it's been very cathartic for both my mother and myself. If you've been avoiding doing a Marie Kondo sweep through or a simple trip to the dump I highly recommend it. It's incredibly liberating.

I Started Setting New Goals

Now I have in no way mastered any of these new habits I've picked up. I still struggle with speaking up and connecting to people when I feel lonely. I still have times when all I want to do all day is watch Netflix or paint pretty pictures, but I'm beginning to learn to self motivate, something I was never taught as a kid. I find that when I do have bursts of energy to do something creative I will channel that into something productive, like taking the dog on a walk, or loading the dishwasher, and then rewarding myself with a night of Netflix and painting. Little things like this are helping me to stay motivated and continue a path of building new and better habits. If you're like me ask yourself this: "What kind of person do I want to be coming out of quarantine?" Do you want to be more responsible with your finances? More active, going on hikes and runs daily or even weekly? And then ask yourself: "What is one thing I can do right now that brings me one step closer to that goal?" and do it. 

I'm not saying that you'll see improvement over night. Lord knows I have't! And I'm not saying you won't miss a day or two, but finding a group of people to keep you motivated and finding ways to motivate yourself will help you begin to inch closer to that finish line. And it's so worth it! So love yourself, start doing things that bring you motivation and passion, surround yourself (virtually or  6 feet apart 😊) with people who will encourage you, motivate you, and and celebrate with you. We may not know what the future holds, but we can start by building who we want to be when we get there.

~Delaney